I'm coming out of hiatus today and breaking the blog silence because I'm in a somber mood of sorts, so I figure if I get the thoughts out of my head, I may feel better but some how I don't think that will exactly do the trick but its worth a shot. A year ago today a dear friend of mine died while doing something she loved to do. Just as I was thankful this time last year for the time I got to spend knowing her and being her friend I'm still thankful on this day. I woke up Sunday and was thinking about her because it was the day of the Marathon that she died running in. As I was driving to church I was fighting back the tears just as I've been fighting them back at work most of the day. I don't want to cry or be sad because she's gone, I want remember the good times we shared, the laughs, the jokes, the good memories that I'll always have of her. It's hard to not think about what her husband and family must be going through during this time of year. It's supposed to be the "most wonderful time of the year" yet, I know they probably have knots in their stomachs and tears in their eyes thinking about what might have been.
I have a birthday coming up and I've never been one to really get all excited and make a big deal out of my birthday (except when I turned 21 (for obvious reasons back then) and turning 25(insurance dropped!)) but thinking of how quickly Erin's life was taken and how young she was makes me appreciative to be able to see another year come and go. On this day I am reminded that the faithful love of the Lord never ends, His mercies never cease; Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin fresh every morning. I'll never understand her death and it's not for me to understand, as I said a year ago, God is God and He's still in control.
I pray today that her husband Jeff and her parents/brother and all of us who were her friends are comforted by the Holy Spirit as we remember her wonderful life.
Thinking of you and missing you Erin Kriewlow Lahr (11/10/79-12/14/08)
Brown..out!
